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| Who's tired of hearing about Shawn Hornbeck and Ben Ownby? I am. Thank you. | | |
| So it's been awhile since I've decided to add a new entry. First things first... I want to thank everyone who has helped me here and there,especially during the power outage and the coincidental car problems (bad alternator) that happened immediately there after, you people know who you are and I love you all to pieces. Additionally, I also want to thank you people for tolerating my poor broke ass during the past year that I wasn't working as much as I would have liked to and seemed to never have any money because as we all know, no-one likes a mooch. Sadly it took almost a year of having things a little harder than I would have liked to realize that I have the most amazing friends and aquaintenances that anyone could ask for. Thank all of you people for being so awesome. | | |
| I've noticed a few things (some of you have already heard about them) that just make me wonder. For any of those who have been on any kind of online dating service you'll know what I'm talking about. Anyone ever catch in people's profiles, usually in the 'What do you look for?' section, that people say they look for honesty. Now think about it. Why is this even an answer? I thought this was a given, but apparently it isn't. Apparently girls (and guys) have to tell you they want an honest partner as if there would be anyone on this planet who would want the contrary. How many times has anyone, instead of "honest", heard: "I want a girl who will steal all my cash, spend it on drugs, wreck my car, and sleep with my best friend when she's done" ? Another one is "spontaneous". Albeit this one may count as less of a given, as there may in fact be people who spend every night at home watching Matlock, CSI and/or assorted MTV reruns looking for the same in someone else (and if you are one of these people then it might be perfectly acceptable to quietly overdose on your prescription medication). For the rest of us, take more people like this binge drinking with you. (it's cheaper then mental health)
Ok... done with my ranting. For those of you who've seen me lately know that I'm driving a 1987 (86?) Reliant K. I am devoting my entire spring break to fixing my Geo Tracker, because I won't miss driving a car that you can hear from two city blocks away with 20y/o factory dry-rotted speakers that squeals when you start it, leaks oil/ coolant, and almost had it's backdoor fall off until it rusted shut (thank god!) Anywho, I'm done feeling inspired now... | | |
| I didn't think I'd actually be able to come up with some New Years Resolutions, but I believe I've found a couple. First off, I will not be so hard on myself. If someone thinks I'm boring then f*** 'em. This year I'm going to worry less of what people think of me and focus more on being myself. Additionally, I'm going to try and strengthen the friends I have. For the love of God I may actually clean my room and keep it that way! I might even try to lose weight, though I'm not for certain if I'll be able to pull this one off, but it doesn't hurt to try. I might even try to go to church more. I've totally been slacking off on the finding a new parish thing. I could cut down on my Red Bull consumption, but caffeine withdrawal's a bitch. Lastly, this year I'm going to be happy, even if it kills me. | | |
| Anyone ever been subjected to hearing someone mush about how so in love they are that you almost feel the insatiable need to reach over and hit them, and not like the slap in the back of the head kind of slap, but more of a striking blow with a bowling pin or maybe a tire iron because you are so tired of hearing their gushy stories about how they shared their first soda with each other on this day three months ago or how they held hands for the first time at 3:17pm on this day some time ago. Whatever it is, it's annoying, but not because we're just negative people; we're simply just jealous. Hearing about someone else's love stories sucks and sucks even worse when we're not experiencing such 'magic' ourselves.
I love it when I get on this topic and someone says "Well doesn't so and so like you?" Although it might be true, but what if you're afraid. What if you're afraid of commitment. More so, what if you're afraid of commitment, not because it would meaning having to be stuck with one girl  but because you worry that you are such a mental headcase that you almost feel absolutely positive that by trying to pursue a relationship that you inviting certain calamity. Worse still you might be worrying that the possessive jealous streak you have is lying dormant waiting for you to unnecessarily take it out on someone who truly doesn't deserve it. Even worse yet! What if you're afraid that when you do find what you're looking for you jump on it like a damn desparate fool who is then labeled into someone's "to be avoided" category. What if you've grown so cynical that trying to put any effort into something isn't worth it because it will never last anyways. | | |
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